Saturday, 20 August 2011

New Blog and Update

Hey guys,
Results day was last Thursday and I have missed my Medicine Offer. I got AABB instead of AAAA. I was going to go into Pharmacology and then GEM but after some thinking I have to decided to resit and reapply next year. This means I get to to have a gap year which is supposed to have an amazing thing :P

I have made a new blog for this new journey. Its called 'Things Happen For a Reason', so if you want to know how my application, gap year and life in general goes then just read about it there.

Thanks to everyone who has been always reading, commenting... on the blog!

See you in my new blog,
M

Saturday, 2 July 2011

Au revoir

I started this blog over a year ago, when I was working on my AS Levels and thinking about all my UCAS details for Medical School. I started it as an anonymous blog and always tried to be positive and confident about everything in life. However,I am not like that any more. I don't feel that optimistic so I have decided to put an end to this blog, but I will continue on twitter (@behrouzn) until I also decide to quit that. 


It has been very useful for me as I have always been able to vent and use it as a window to the outside world so it was easy to disconnect. It now reflects my way through two years of A Levels  and Medical School application and I want to use this opportunity to thank everyone who has help me throughout. 


Now, A Levels are over and I need to wait until results day. I am very very very scared of that day even though I am quiet sure what the results are going to be like. If I get in I will make a new blog and I will publish the link here, if I don't make the grades then I will take a break from this Internet world and think about what I should do with my life. 


For  now I don't even want to think about results, so lets just have an amazing summer! 
M

Sunday, 26 June 2011

'Now it's time to look back and realise what you have lost along the way'

On Friday, I graduated from high school. I have been with the same people for the last nine years and now it's all coming to end. The graduation ceremony was a goodbye from my side but people seem to want things to continue, into a something called, forever. I don't think our friendships can be forever, maybe only with a few of them, especially as we all have different goals in life, we all want to do different things, live in different places and it will be very hard to continue being just how we are now. 


Since I started nine years ago, I have been through all kind of experiences; drama, laughter, stress and many other memories that will always be there. However, I have always said that I was not going to keep much contact with all of them once school was over but now that is very hard. I wanted to end it now as we had a great time together all of us during the graduation dinner but it's very difficult thinking of excuses not to go to things that I've been invited and I feel like I choose not to have friends. 


That really makes me feel like I am very selfish and ungrateful but if I think about it that is actually how I feel right now. There are some people who I just don't want to be friends with, they will always be my acquaintance and I will always be there if they need me but I don't want to have to meet up with them every week or so...


I have always been very independent friends wise and I always say that you are always alone than with bad company but now I am just confused about what I am doing. It could either be a mistake or the right decision!


Good thing is, last exam tomorrow! 


I hope you are having a nice summer,
M 

Wednesday, 8 June 2011

'We are cool kids and cool kids never die'.

I have already done three exams and I have ten more to do. These three exams were supposed to be the easiest one of all and I had to try and get the best grade I could so that I could be more relaxed for the rest of the exams. However, both the physics and the chemistry exams were really hard and even though I am revising a lot lately because I really want to go to medical school next year I found them really hard and so now I have to do very well in my other exams.

It's easier said that done, to be honest and I know I am being dramatic about this and I should stop complaining so this is what I'm doing. I never decided to have a blog just to rant about my life, so I am going for a jog and then  I'm watching tv for some time and then I will get back to revision.

Now we should go with the happy things! Nothing fun this time because I don't do much except  for revision. However, this weekend I have some plans. They are not big things but it does involve going out for dinner, wearing a suit, meeting new people and hopefully having some fun so I am actually looking forward to that. Also, my dad said yesterday that if I don't go to study in the UK and I stay here then he will get me a car, but I told him that I want to go abroad so he said that I need to choose another present. It has to be something big because its for my 18th birthday, getting my driving license and graduating so I think I want a Mac but I'm still looking into other things that I can get. Then hopefully, if (or when, to sound more positive) I get the grades for medical school I should ask my parents for another present, and this will just be money since I have nothing saved up! I am looking for summer jobs, for now I have two Spanish kids that want to learn English so I will be tutoring them as I have done for the past two summers and then I also wanted to work at a store but I have not found anything yet. In terms of travelling, I think I will stay here and enjoy the sunny weather, something that I sure I will miss once I've moved to the UK:

Lately I have been  very busy with revision so I don't have much time to write new posts. If you want more frequent updates, then just follow me on twitter @behrouzn.

Thanks for reading, hope all your exams (and your life in general) are going well,
M

Thursday, 2 June 2011

'Hey! I don't need to tan, mine is natural!'

June has now arrived and in about 25 days my exams will be over. The 24th is my graduation so I need to start getting my speech ready ;P
Last night I was out with some friends and it was a change from all the revision. Exams start again in Monday so I shall get revising, not much time today so this is just a short post!
If you will like live updates follow me on twitter @behrouzn
Good luck With exams,
M

Friday, 27 May 2011

'Are you looking at me confused, just because I like medical anthropology?'

Exams have now started and I am trying my best to revise at all times, but I do get too stressed sometimes to the extent that I can't even revise. Normally, when I am very stressed I get ready, put my flip flips on, my sunglasses on, earphones in, music on.. and then just walk around the beach. Sometimes I go out overdressed, because I really like to be overdressed xD so I will be walking in the middle of the beach with trousers and a shirt and people around me would be sunbathing and so they seem confused with my choice of clothing for the occasion.

However, I frequently get confused looks while I am walking around. I get them from people that know me and from strangers and my theory is that people that know me get confused just because I am interest in 'not very well know' things ie medical anthropology, graphic design... and with strangers I think it is because my fashion is not very Spanish-like so they find it weird for me to dress they way I do.

At the beginning, I always got really annoyed when my friends just didn't understand why I was so interested in graphic design, for example, because they just don't know what the point of graphic design is and they seem to never understand that while some people like painting, I do a similar thing but on a computer and using a piece of software. As I have said, medical anthropology also causes struggles between the people around me and they always tell me that if I like medical anthropology that much then I should go and study it at uni instead of reading medicine.

About this I have two points to make:
1.In the UK not many universities offer a programme of only Medical Anthropology, I believe it is only UCL and Durham that have a course that fits into this branch of Anthropology.
2. What I am interested is in the connection between medicine and medical anthropology. I am really interested in international health, in epidemiology, the work the WHO does etc. but does that not mean that I would not like to work as a doctor in a hospital. I believe both have many things in common and so they can both be done.

Okay, so aside from that unexpected rant my driving skills seem to have improve a bit even though yesterday I crashed slightly against a wall and the car got a big scratch, I was going really slowly so it was not anything major.

I have a chemistry tutor, simply because my chemistry teacher in school is useless and always he does is tell me that there is no point in me even revising chemistry because I will never get the A grade I need. Thanks for that :D

All I have been doing lately has been revision, watching tv, (loved to Birmingham and the Bullring in the Apprentice!!) and walking, a lot of walking.

I don't have any other exams until the 6th June and my graduation rehearsal is next Wednesday, does this mean that I need to start getting the speech ready?! It's so sad that I am leaving my school this summer and I am not coming back after more than 5 years. I think I will really miss all my colleagues and teachers and just the atmosphere in general, but it is something that everyone goes through so I will be okay.

I still have a lack of summer plans (any suggestions?). I have applied for some jobs but they never got back to me but I am sure I will be tutoring English which is something, at least.

Also, last weekend we had elections and I voted for the first time :D

I thinking that is all for now, this could be my longest post ever!

Hope exams are going well,
M

Monday, 23 May 2011

'I can see the Spanish flag from my window', exclaimed the naive boy

Many things have gone on in my life since my last post, yes, especially a lot of revision and stressful times. Now that I have my driving license (apparently I am going to write that I have a driving license in every post from now on!) I have been driving around to get more practice and hopefully become the best driver ever.

Also, in this time I've noticed that I have some kind of problem which is that I just cannot focused on something when I am thinking about something stupid and insignificant that I should not worry about but I do ! I am sure that sounds confusing but I can't explain it any better.

My first exam is on Wednesday, which is terrifying because it's not only the last set of exams I am going to have before university, it also the last month I am going to be with the people that have been in my year for ages and also it means that this are the most important ever because they have the last say about me going to medical school or not next year.

I am not very confident, yet. I guess I will be more near the time and so you must be thinking about why am I writing soo much today instead of being revising well this is more because I can't really be bothered. However, it has to be done. Today I am going all of Biology Practical topics for exam on Wednesday and then I will go over some Chemistry, Maths and more Biology.

Can you feel the exam stress? Well, I  can!

If you want more updates from me, 24/7 and even more to the point you will get more than bored of me you can follow me on  twitter @behrouzn

Thanks for reading,
M

Wednesday, 18 May 2011

It is never as bad as you thought it would be :D

Hello guys, 
Hope you are doing great and your exams are going (or go well) and if you are lucky enough not to have any then you should go out and have a great time before I get more jealous :P 


My driving test was yesterday.  I got to take the exam in my favourite area, which was a plus and it was all going very well until I was told to park. Once I said that  I finished, the examiner said that he was giving me a second chance because he didn't like how I had done. This meant I tried again until I though it was more or less right ( I am sure it was right the first time too :P). Then I left and had to wait about 45 minutes until everyone had finished their exam. Once their exams were over we all talked about how we thought we had done and then our instructor gave us the results. 2 passes and 2 failures. 1 boy and 1 girl passed. I was the boy :D :D :D :D 


I didn't believe it, I thought I had failed because the end was not good enough but apparently the rest was all excellent so the examiner decided to give me the license. On Friday I need to go and collect the license and then I can start driving, by myself (scary ! :O). 


I was really happy and glad it was over and I celebrated having a big lunch with my mum and going shopping afterwards. Then I went to the library to revise, yes just because I can drive does not mean that I can stop revising ;) and that was the day finished. 


Today I had planned a lot of revision, but I woke up feeling really ill and I have been in bed since then (well I did go out for a bit to get some fresh air...). Now I am feeling much better so I am going to over Chemistry Practical Skills as I have a mock tomorrow and hopefully I will also go through Biology and Maths :D 


Good Luck to those of you with exams tomorrow or later this week. 


My exams start in a week! 


I hope you all follow me on twitter now that I now how to express myself in 140 characters. 
@behrouzn


Update soon,
M


PS:  I hope you have all watched the Gossip Girl Season 4 Finale - its AMAZING! 

Tuesday, 10 May 2011

DRIVING TEST ON MONDAY! EXAMS START SOON!

Hey guys,
My exams start soon...don't want to check the countdown right now just in case I lose my sleep!
And also today I decided to take my driving practical exam next Monday, which is too soon and I may not be too prepared but hopefully I can pass and if I don't then life always gives out second chances! (not really, just in this case).

Well, I am really tired so I don't know what to do but the amount of hours I have done of revision today is equal to nothing except if you count the 40 minutes I did of maths while watching the latest gossip girl episode... season finale next week !!

Okay, so that's all for now.

I hope you are all doing fine :D

M

Saturday, 7 May 2011

How do they expect me to revise when everyone is out!

Well, I guess that's the problem of having exams near summer time, that when the weather is nice everyone is out enjoying themselves and you have to stay in to do work! Today I wanted that to be different so I what I did was watch two films and many tv shows and not do much revision. Then, of course, what came next was the feeling of regret you always get when you know that you should have done a lot of work but you never get to it  and then you say 'okay I will work now' but then you start updating your twitter and other social networks and also you write an entry in your blog just to make sure people don't think you died or something xD


Exams start in 17 days, which is very scary.


I need to revise a lot. I have to revise. I need to go and revise. revise. revise. revise.


I hope you are all revising or enjoying yourself if you don't have to revise :P


M


PS: Follow my tweets! 

Monday, 2 May 2011

THE INTERNET BORES ME

Hey, 
I am been really busy with many things, including revision, lately so I don't have much time to put into the blog. 
However, while I was taking a break from revision I started to think how bored of the Internet I am. This is something soo weird. It is just unexpected. A few years ago I could spend days in front of the computer screen because I had so many things going on but right now all I have to do is check my email and some social networks and then there is nothing else for me to do. I no longer have time for graphic design so my Photoshop is never opened either. 


What I was wondering was, is this change in my activity due to me being really busy and having other things to do or is it just about me closing a stage of my life and moving on to something uni ie medical school next year (if I get the grades :P)? 


I think it could be both. 
I am just not really bothered with things either... which is not good. 
But I also keep getting these random thoughts you can read about them on twitter.... 


That is all for today, 
I hope that you are all revising a lot and making the best of these months ahead before summer (I have no summer plans though :S) 


Write soon,
M

Friday, 29 April 2011

ROYAL WEDDING!

Well, I think you can imagine how my life is going when my main highlight after weeks without updating the blog is the Royal Wedding. Well, I am actually a fan of royal families and I think that Kate and William (and Pippa) looked fantastic and I wish them the best :D 


My life is average ;) because all I have in my head is revision but I never have time to get on with it. I feel very ill today so revision is not going to be great today either GREAT! so all I do is stress myself about those AAA grades that I need. 


Chemistry is my main worry and I think I have Physics under control but  I just need some more time. I guess I will have to stop writing and just get on  with the revision...


Best of luck to all those with exams soon, 
M


PS: The only summer plan I have so far is worry about Results Day.... not happy!

Saturday, 16 April 2011

Update!

Hey guys, I have been really busy lately so I had no time to update the blog. 
I am now an adult!! and I went to Birmingham to the Living Taster Day which has made me want to revise more and more !! 


Exams start soon and now I have one week off college because of Easter :D 


I hope you are all doing well, 
M

Wednesday, 30 March 2011

Time Out

Hey guys, 
I am going to take some time out because I spend too much time on the computer and I have no time for it any more. I am on twitter, now and I do hope to keep that updated by using my phone. 


Follow me ! 


M

Saturday, 19 March 2011

BIRMINGHAM MEDICAL SCHOOL 2011

Hi guys, sorry for not writing in so long. 


I received a rejection from St Andrews a few days after my interview and so I decided to firm Birmingham and my insurance is Pharmacology at Edinburgh University. I need to get AAA (incl Chemistry) so I need to get working from now to make sure I get those grades :D 


I can't wait to be at Medical School, the MedSoc is awesome and I am going to the Accommodation Open Day the 9th April to see the city once again :D 


All there is now is revision, a lot of revision! 


Good Luck with your summer exams 


M 

Saturday, 12 March 2011

back from St Andrews

I am now back from Edinburgh after spending an amazing time there.  I visited the city for 2 days and on the 9th I went to St Andrews for my interview. I really liked St Andrews, the city and the medical school are both very nice but I don't think my interview was good enough so I have my hopes down, but I have Birmingham which I also loved so its okay. 


I have a lot of work to do and a lot of catching up....
M

Thursday, 3 March 2011

leaving soon :D

Hey everyone!
I am leaving to Edinburgh soon and today all I do was get things ready :D I can't wait!!
My interview is on Wednesday and there are many things I have to go over but  I am just sooo stressed about it all, I don't have any time. Now I have to go and do my homework ¬¬


I have also been working on my Triond. Add me as a friend :D 


That is all for today, I have no time, sorry! 
M

Sunday, 27 February 2011

The end of February and Driving School!

This weekend we get to say bye to February, which means that there are only 9 days until my interview in St. Andrews!! SCARY! Also, last Tuesday I started taking driving lessons. I go everyday for about 2 hours which means I have no time to update this :C 


On Friday I had a lot of fun with friends while yesterday and today was just relaxing at home. Today I may go for a walk  and I will take my Interview Prep Notes just to give it a few more reads.


That's all for now, 
M

Tuesday, 22 February 2011

its only tuesday night and I dead!

I am very tired and all I did today was go to driving school for an hour and watch the new episode of gossip girl which is brilliant.

I am  too tired to type.
Sorry
M

Sunday, 20 February 2011

sunday=revision day!

Hey guys, how are you all doing? 


Today is supposed to be my revision day and I still haven't done anything... I have a chemistry test on Tuesday and I have to get good grades which is why I am looking for a tutor. I am not sure if a tutor will work for me as I think my problem is not in understanding the concepts, it's more in remembering them ;P Also I hate multiple choice. 


I have my interview soon and can't wait to go to Scotland :D 


I hope you are all having a great weekend, just like I am. I went to watch Black Swan yesterday btw :P 


M